Sometimes, I think I’m a monster.

Sometimes I think Im taking these mental pills to try and not go insane.

Sometimes I think I really am insane. That I really had gone mad.

Sometimes, I feel like a monster myself.

Then I question. Why am I like this? Why do I feel like this? Am I really insane? Am I mad? Will everyone around me have less wounds if I was not around?

Will the world be better without me?

Am I truely mad?

Am I really restraining the monster inside of me from getting out?

Am I actually a Monster?




Been a few hours since I got up.

Someone broke the damn bike again.


Fucking bike!

What the fuck

Fuck this bike!

Fucking piece of shit!

Useless piece of crap!

How the fuck does this bike breakdown after i’ve ridden this not even 200m after repair? What the fuck?

What am I? A fucking repair man? Why the fuck am I always the one repairing shit after one of my family member broke it? What the fuck?

Fuck this shit! Im seriously pissed off right now. Im done with this shit! I am literally done with this shit!

Fuck this!


Home. Eating something helps with my anger issue. (It has a side effect of making me fat)


Playing some cs:go.

Im gonna sell all my skins this friday… the most missed skin ill have is the dragon tatto of glovk 18… maybe i should sell everything except that?


I feel like i cried.

Maybe it’s because I was so upset. I don’t know. The important thing is, i feel better. At least, a bit better. Hope this continues.


Just had some pills.

More info on the article I uploaded.


Tired. But I should not be tired.

Fuck all this.

Reading a book while the phone’s automatically playing the game.



Just gonna go to sleep.


Im looking for a temporary tattoo.

Basically cuz my parents wont let me get a real one… and the whole korea society thinks if I have a tattoo, im a gang member kind of thing…

So im looking for a temporary one.

Looking for a dragon tattoo, of course.

Hopefully ill get to have a nice one.



Got up.



Got some new textbooks…

And am looking for a temporary tattoo.


Not much has happened.

Playing war dragons, listening to music, and other stuff that’s some daily stuff.

Have math class in 1 hour.


Going to the math class. Hopefully i will not study about the big test today.

Tried to buy chocolate. Apparantly the’re out of stock. The store had a few in stock a few hours ago. Apparantly they’re really popular.


I just came back from mathclass.

Gotta go to sleep. Bye!



Main meal. (It’s made out of pork. And this restaurant gave me some rice for the side dish. And some veges.)

A dessert I bought 4 myself.

Not the best, but let’s be fair. That only cost me $5. (The drink cost me $2..)



Got up at 1pm. Actually got up at 7am and 9 am and 12:30, but 10pm is when i finally stood up from my bed.

Anyways, im going for a walk. I might or might not go to a headphone shop. Dunno.


Im waiting for a sub. Changed my plans and am going to some other headphone shop. A bit closer one.


In the sub right now.

A damn lot less crowded than yesturday. I have to ride this ride for ’bout 30 min, so it’s a good thing that the sub is less crowded.


So… there’s a bunch of girls in front of me, and apparantly they’re not from around here. Cuz they are raking pics of themselves in the sub and everything. Plus, they’re noisy as hell. Not that it disturbes me cuz the sub is already noisy.


Out of the sub. Going 2 the headphone store.


Im in the sub again.

A lot of bikes in the sub.

Anyways, the headphone store movedto another place and i did not know about it at all…

Guess ill have to search 4 it at home…


Near home now.

Just got a call from my friend. He asked me to go home together. Lol. Somehow lol. Anyways, said yes, and now gonna get off the train 1 station later.


Near home. At least, nearer.

Anyways, got another call from my friend. He told me to wait 4 him. My mind is saying no and yes at the same time. No cuz he’s so stuck up, and yes cuz Id rather be with him than walk alone. God, i hate my social skills in times like this. When I have to put up with my friend and have no choice.


Met with my friend. 


God… this guy does not know how to listen to others…

And I have to put up with him…


Im at a food court with ‘the friend’.

Eating something called ‘DonGas’


I am at home. Like really at home. Now.

My mind right now :


No joke really that. Facepalm.

Meeting my friend was not my best idea…


Till now i played games.

#wasting time


More playing games. So… i think today’s gonna end like this. Bye!

I disassembled my Galaxy S4.

There’s the photo.

I disassembled it cuz I accidentally put my phone near the shower while I was showering, and my phone was soaked.

It had charging issues. At first I thought it was becuz if the water. But come to think of it, i dont think it is. It had charging issues  yesturday as well. While it was not soaked.

Im afraid my s4 is dying. Sure, i should have expected it, buying a heavily used S4, but it still sucks. 

At least other functions still works. Guess this phone’s sturdier than I remember.